i just don't know

if i can
do it
i mean, objectively
sure, why not
yeah, i can
ok, i can do this
but, then
there's a picture
and i see
your face
and it hits me
it hurts me
my heart gets tight
gets scared
gets caught in the back of my throat
it remembers so much better than i
relives it
lives it
buries, hides, shoves, forgets, denies, forgives
but relives
when i see your face
so, no
i can't, i'm sorry
i won't come
i can't leave
i don't know
please don't ask, again
i just don't know
i just

i, just