my triumphant return

i have a dark heart
and an innocent soul
i'm unconsolable
red wine tears
pumped, flow
like lush gasoline
petroleum hair
corona aflame
i'm biblical in the bad sense
red eyes
rimmed
wish hatred, abhorrence
blood and chaos
want you to scream
so i can laugh
want you to die
so i have space to breathe
and yet
you should stay
caress my cheek
kiss my forehead
soothe, balm, heal, love
love like a divine razor
can i be damned and purified
in the one flesh
in one breath

for a person who believes in neither
heaven nor hell
i'm getting to know them pretty well