sweet.sweet.sweet.

like rotting teeth
cringe
sickly sickly
sticky toffee
of a putrescent corpse
creamy
milky mush
warm and blankety
electric doona scarf and wine warmth
cracking crackling
dig dig stab with a silver spoon
steel polished
off the whole bowl
lick the corners
excavate the crevices with your little tool
ferret out each and every morsel
consumed with consuming
when you reached over-full a good while back
and now its the challenge of the thing
the punishing yourself with pleasure
with pain of pleasure of pain
of sooner or later you'll stop
have to
have to

i have to
i have to

go
before
i'm
.
.
.
sick.

the more you make of it

the less it really seems
sometimes
in dreams
it can be wild and grand
and synaesthetic
encased in coloured mist
that curls through your bones
and smokes at every orifice
blending you in oil paint smudges
diluted into the landscape
everything flowing
into everything
else

its nice
because you're connected
if you're there
it all makes sense
or rather
why try to use logic
when that's just so patently absurd
so obviously counter-intuitive
so duh
so just shut up and enjoy the ride

oh fuck

it just broke
everything
is in danger
of crashing down
wood and splinters
raining
screws
without purchase
metal and timber forever
divorced

no support
i'll have to live in boxes
on boxes
remove their current inhabitants
munch on fibrous board
card shards

and when it rains
my kingdom turns to pulp
fiction
comes real
i sleep in sodden reams
and drape
in newsprint running
my sheets stain me
with inky ingrain
if it breaks
and i'm left
with the old woman
living
out of a shoe
box

half an hour and then i'm gone

the rain
makes it easier
gives me a reason
to search the sky
bulbous and grey
strangely flat
everything moving
high above
me
constant
change
i
consider standing in the middle of the road for a while
to see what that's like
but i'm afraid of what your neighbours might think
they turn their lights on
then off when it gets dark
strange
they fiddle with the latches on their front gates
i listen
to the tempo picked out on sheet metal
i long to be soaking
but the tram ride home
wouldn't be much fun
skipping naked would be nice
but no one really wants to see that
least of all me
but the rain
would make it easier
gives me an excuse
at least
that's something
ok
i'll wait another half hour
and then i'm gone

i.like.to.watch

don't we all

jpgs
gifs imgs
all there
spread out
waiting
i can look as much as i like
no need to pay
to talk
to know your name

discard your clothes like a cheeseburger wrapper
get straight to the meat
or the bun
if you prefer
and then
move on
a new boy as fast as i can click
you
what's under that
oh ok
not bad
next
you
show me your cock
cool
next

each image
becomes less
and less able
to arouse
i need more
exponentially
bigger
harder
rougher

but you like it
i mean
that's why you're there, right
you took that pic
uploaded some vids
of your best feature
solicitous
calculated the angle the lighting
or a moment of weakness
desire causing desperation
depravity
delicious exhibitionist tendencies

maybe you wanna meet
someone
"for fun" - prefer same age
those that "look after themselves"
sleep till you find one that sticks
the more they click
the less you feel
the more you need
more
clicks
pictures of dicks
and other muscles
glisten on screen
i can even listen
to you scream
and moan
oh yeah
i'm gonna cum
as you insert a finger
into your
soft secret fetish
as you play to the crowd
fulfill their requests
sell yourself for free
cos deep down that's what you're worth
but right now
right here
you're hot
and wanted
clicked over and again
by who knows how many men
you don't care
you just lay it bear
and beg to feel
stretch it til its real
keep going down that road
tripped on the first step and rode it down
hoping to drown
in the fluid
oceans of lust

until you bust

ginny

i'm hungry
but for what
i'm thirsty
but water cannot slate
no matter what
i shove in that hole
its still empty
still waiting
still there

i went to the supermarket
everything was nice
ordered
colourful
10 of each in a row
i wandered every aisle
but nothing leaped out
i left with a bottle of tonic water
because i couldn't bear
being empty handed

but you can't drink tonic alone
(well i do, but you shouldn't)
so it found its mate
natural state
ms gin
and mr tonic

he can only stand her in small doses
otherwise she's overpowering
he says
she of course
couldn't care less
lets him fizz away
whilst she gets down to business

so i introduce them to some friends
they can seem a little icy
perhaps too cool
but eventually they'll warm to you
and fit right in

i let them quarrel
(they do it so publicly)
always with the lights on
the blinds up
let the neighbours have a good show (for once)
but the end of the night
see them always
entwined in each other
almost indistinguishable

and i am duller
blunted
rain thuds retardedly on my head
sure the edges have been sanded down
but whos care about the corners
when that hole
persists

and i just exist
still hungry

and yes
i could use a drink

sweet

soft
like a pigs underbelly
silk purse and all that
scented
not like a cheap candle
but gelato
lemon
pistachio
a smell that smells exactly
as it tastes
soft
delicate
it unfolds on the tongue
like a package
japanese fabric wrapped
strictly beautiful
fragile
like incence smoke
still
suspended
clinging
to our lips
flushed pink
red
icecream icing colours
their flavour obvious
just by looking
you can tell
it gonna be
sweet

workin tha streets

yeah baby
work it
work those streets
walk em good
hit that pavement
yeah
hit it girl
mmm, like that
do it like that
lean
yeah rub that wall
he's been a bad wall
dig your heel in his bricks
ah
again
yeah
come over here
yeah bring yourself up against my window
mmm, you like my leer
yeah
you hate it don't you
you hate the way i finger you with my eyes
don't pretend
you love it
hey come here
let me push you over
let me graze your knees all up in this here bitumen
feel my heel in your spine
ooh yeah baby
press back
squirm for me
act like you don't like it
i like that
oh baby
press your cheek on my fist
yeah girl
oo damn
that was a good un
again
again
oooh
you gettin me so hard
i'm gonna hafta hurt somebody
if ya know what im sayin
you know what we gonna do
just let me yank your skank ass self ova to my car
bend across my bonnet
yeah
sprawl baby
yeah
thats it
damn you look hot
damn girl
you look dead
you're makin me so fuckin hard
keepin doin that
and i'm gonna explode
yeah
you know it
right in your face
say what now
hey you even bleed on cue
damn
you one special trick
yeah baby
i'll treat you real special
i'll be nice and gentle
you be daddy's special little girl
you know what daddy likes
scream
you scream real good baby
do it again
fuck yeah
again
fuck yeah
again
fuck yeah
again
fuck
yeah
here's 5 bucks bitch