that sinking feeling

you get the feeling
that one day
it'll all just make sense

you'll finally have that one realisation
epiphany
the key
to the lock of your life

and all your hurt
doubt
fear
every trauma
every angst
every mote of anxiety
will flow
out in a great glorious soft wave

and you'll be pristine
released
complete
content
transformed

the new, better, ultimate you
the one you dreamed you'd be
able to tackle anything
a thousand and one positive adjectives
culminate in you
you are brilliance
happiness
energy
dancing through life
happily ever after

but you won't
there is no key
there isn't a lock
there is only the silence
of the cage
the tick of the bars
as
you drown
in the oceans of your dreams