alone

again
you know the drill
kill time
drink
douse the fuel
wet things won't catch alight
soggy trousers
dry cheeks
i rub my eyes
but i can't see any better
murky muddy
rough and brackish
silty heart
anti-pig
wallowing to get clean
get the dirt off
drowning to feel
screaming for silence
wanting not to want
the lines of opposition
a phalanx
guard of honour
borders boundaries all protected
sealed
hermetically
blissful contamination
killed on contact
ultra disinfectant eyes
sharp scrubbing smile
and lying heart
biting its tongue
spitting out filthy lies
bitchy thing
viper edged
nasty
a bin of decomposing scraps
oozing wet
making a mark
leaving a stain
and i remain
alone